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No matter how hard we try to live in peace, there will always be something happened to intrigued our life.  Because, happiness isn't something immortal, and so do with sadness. 

Sometimes, we end up with something we don't want or even something we don't expect. 

Dr. Strange in Multiverse of Madness : I love you in every universe. Waymond in Everything Everywhere All At Once : In another life, I would have really liked just doing laundry and taxes with you.

pic source from IMDB Sex Education Season 1 - 2019 Season 2 - 2020 Season 3 - 2021 Hari ini aku baru aja namatin salah satu series  yang udah aku ikutin beberapa bulan ini, yaitu Sex Education season satu sampai tiga. Nontonnya tentu dibarengi sama series dan film-film lain, makanya selesainya lama. Sex Education ini bukan tipe series yang fast-paced kaya La Casa De Papel, jadi aku nontonnya pas bener-bener santai aja. Series ini gamblang, termasuk vulgar juga di beberapa episode, ringan, dan kehidupan para karakternya relate sama kehidupan nyata. Apalagi sountrack- nya enak-enak dan outfit yang dipakai para tokohnya tuh gemes-gemes. Aku paling suka sama jaket tiga warnanya Otis, yang diperanin sama Asa Butterfield. Sempat kepikiran mau beli, tapi gatau di mana. Series ini kan udah muncul dari 2019 yaah, tapi dulu-dulu tuh, aku gaada tertarik. Karena dari judulnya aja nih, wah pasti ya bakal banyak scene "yang gitu". Cuma waktu itu lagi explore Netflix dan

I remember I love foreign songs since I was a little kid, I can't even remember exactly the time was. My mother played the song she loved a lot, mostly 90s & 80s. She influenced me.  I like everything about Thailand since grade (maybe) 4. I was in love when I listen to their language. I'm obsessed because I heard some from movies. But, until now I only know Sawadee Kha and Mai Pen Rai. I like the language but it doesn't motivate me to learn the language. Besides, I prefer Spanish and Japanese to learn now and accompany my (suck)cess English. Even inconsistency always facing me. And when it comes to language, it always begins with a single song that guided me. Music and song are universal languages. I never cared what I listen to as long the music can comfort me.  The hardest and most annoying part of that is, that I can't sing the song, especially Thai songs and Mandarin songs. No matter how many times the songs are played, I can't memorize and spell them correc

"Apa yang kamu tanam, itulah yang akan kamu tuai." Kalau kita melakukan hal-hal yang baik, kita akan mendapatkan hal-hal yang baik juga. Kalau kita berbuat hal yang buruk, akan mungkin kita mendapat keburukan. Tapi, gimana kalau kita merasa bahwa kita selalu melakukan hal-hal yang baik, dan kita tetap melalui keadaan yang tidak sesuai dengan harapan kita? 

May 2022 would be the month that I never forget for my entire life. Mixed feelings, such as guilt and sadness, but I still have a blessing in disguise. It made me see the world not as before. I know exactly what I feel, but I don't know what they've been through.  And I don't wanna know, what exactly they think about me. Since some people that I know always wear a mask.  Hope June blessed us. New month, new hope, and a new spirit. 

Dalam hidup orang lain, diri kita tidak pernah sama. Kita yang baik menurut A, belum tentu si B akan mengiyakannya. Pada satu hari, sangat mungkin bahwa kita membuat orang lain tersenyum dan bahagia meski dengan hal-hal kecil yang kita lakukan, tapi di saat yang bersamaan, kita juga bisa membuat orang yang lainnya justru kecewa dan sedih. 

I always got a fever when my feeling quickly changed. It's normal by the way. The response from my body when there's something that may be disturbed the cells in my brain.  A little dream in the dawn had made a bunch of feelings in my heart. I dreamt of an old friend in my childhood who brings so many memories. I never thought about her before, but when the dream comes, suddenly I tried so hard to get in contact with her which is now I have already contacted her. It was a long long time ago since we connected the last time.  This thing made me delighted. The past played in my head and made me relieved cause I remember it all too well. One minute you're happy and the other you're sad. The line that I've got from If Life Is So Short by The Moffats . Feelings always change. Funny isn't it? When you are so angry with the traffic, when you are late to catch up the bus or train, when someone is not on purpose spoiled your coffee, or when you run out of food for dinner

I know someone who lives alone. She is a widower. Her husband had died years ago. She doesn't have a single kid or grandkids. She lives in another city where she doesn't have relatives who are closest to her. I thought it was just in movies, but it happens in my real life. All too real! Somehow, many people feel lonely. Even one of my friends has many circles but she told me can feel lonely too. Many of us, standing in a crowd but always feel alone. It's normal maybe, but it's ironic.  No matter how many friends do we have, but who understands us. Now, with the widower, what do you think? I can't imagine how does it feel to her. I know even she has no one besides her, she has people who care for her. Still, she must be lonely. She has nothing. And it can happen to us.  We always wish and are told to long live in this life when we got birthdays. But what if we are the ones who left when people we love had left us first?

Kemarin aku terbius dan hanya terfokus pada Coloratura dalam album Music of The Spheres.  Lalu rilislah MV Let Somebody Go dengan ala-ala dimensi cerminnya Doctor Strange, juga memperlihatkan sorrowness yang truly touch and kinda break my heart. This song is about loss and how we accept and perceive it.  Saat musisi masa kini berlomba dengan explicit languange or F* word dalam lagu mereka, Coldplay menyajikan musik tanpa itu dan emosinya tetap terasa begitu kuat. How soothing the music is, Selena's voice like an angel, beautiful and deepest pain lyrics, I really need more like this! I'm not on the mood to cry, however this song just let me tears my eyes. My favorite lines - when they call the mathematicians and they ask them to explain, they say love is only EQUAL to the pain

I keep standing on this bridge, nobody's around. And if i fall, who's gonna hold my hand? Maybe no one's gonna catch me? Is that really the true?

  pic source from IMDb Dead Poets Society ini adalah film keluaran tahun 1989. Dari aku kecil sampai udah kepala dua, ga pernah denger ada orang yang merekomendasikan film ini. Padahal menurut aku, Dead Poets Society  masuk ke dalam list film yang harus ditonton sekali seumur hidup.  Waktu itu lagi iseng cari-cari tontonan di Disney+ Hotstar . Terus ketemu sama judul film ini, kok kaya judulnya aneh banget. Komunitas puisi mati? Komunitas penyair mati? Apaan sih?! Ternyata pas nonton filmnya, subtitle nya bilang kalau komunitas pujangga mati. Ya lebih enak didengar lah ya. Bahasa Inggrisku harus banyak dibenerin nih. Aku gatau kalau ternyata film ini kental sekali akan pendidikan. Aku nonton ini juga karna ada nama Ethan Hawke yang terkenal banget di trilogi Before, meskipun aku belum pernah nonton film-filmnya. Lumayan lah, liat Ethan Hawke pas masih muda. Durasi film ini juga cukup lama, sekitar 2 jam lebih tetapi aku gaada ngerasa bosen sama sekali. Menurutku, akhir dari film ini ra