dairyfir

I always got a fever when my feeling quickly changed. It's normal by the way. The response from my body when there's something that may be disturbed the cells in my brain.  A little dream in the dawn had made a bunch of feelings in my heart. I dreamt of an old friend in my childhood who brings so many memories. I never thought about her before, but when the dream comes, suddenly I tried so hard to get in contact with her which is now I have already contacted her. It was a long long time ago since we connected the last time.  This thing made me delighted. The past played in my head and made me relieved cause I remember it all too well. One minute you're happy and the other you're sad. The line that I've got from If Life Is So Short by The Moffats . Feelings always change. Funny isn't it? When you are so angry with the traffic, when you are late to catch up the bus or train, when someone is not on purpose spoiled your coffee, or when you run out of food for dinner

I know someone who lives alone. She is a widower. Her husband had died years ago. She doesn't have a single kid or grandkids. She lives in another city where she doesn't have relatives who are closest to her. I thought it was just in movies, but it happens in my real life. All too real! Somehow, many people feel lonely. Even one of my friends has many circles but she told me can feel lonely too. Many of us, standing in a crowd but always feel alone. It's normal maybe, but it's ironic.  No matter how many friends do we have, but who understands us. Now, with the widower, what do you think? I can't imagine how does it feel to her. I know even she has no one besides her, she has people who care for her. Still, she must be lonely. She has nothing. And it can happen to us.  We always wish and are told to long live in this life when we got birthdays. But what if we are the ones who left when people we love had left us first?