Maaf

Maaf, tolong, terima kasih, sudah menjadi kata wajib sehari-hari. Tiga kata itu tidak boleh dilewatkan dalam hidup bersosial. Namun, bagiku satu kata "Maaf" sangat sulit untuk aku ucapkan kepada seseorang. Sangat sulit. Aku bahkan tidak tahu harus memulai dari mana.

Sampai saat ini, aku masih belum bisa.

Aku seorang yang pengecut, berlindung di balik tawa dan topik remeh-temeh. Seakan-akan aku menghindar, ya padahal memang betul. Aku berjalan tanpa peduli bahwa jalan yang aku pijak sebelumnya masih basah dan menyisakan bekas di kakiku yang masih aku bawa untuk berjalan sampai sekarang.

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Welcome to My Virtual Home!

Hi, there! Welcome to my blog! I am nobody, but sometimes I would like to share my thoughts, my views, my opinions, even no one listen to me. My hobbies are watching movies, listening to the music, reading books, and collect some quotes from there. So maybe I'll write the stuff like that in here. I'm just an ordinary girl who living in an extraordinary world. I would say thank you to those of you for visiting this blog, my virtual home. Hope you can enjoy and get a good vibes. Love, Firly Alvita

Dear Myself

How am I gonna live tomorrow Without you by my side How am I gonna pass through the days Without your figure filling in my days My heart wasn't hurt like this before Sun wasn't shining like days before The night wasn't dark like the nights before And I don't see stars anymore When something is over is that over? Is that a real ending even if it feels not real? I don't want it to be over but it has to end And what am I supposed to do when you're not mine anymore? Don't worry, the storm has over Dear myself, you're gonna be fine just wait sit tight and see Dear myself, everything happens at least for one reason Dear myself, even if time felt like wouldn't heal, you're gonna see different versions of yourself Dear myself, when he was hurting you doesn't mean everybody would hurt you I was too busy listening to my messy mind Got tension, under pressure, blaming myself for everything that happened I underestimated myself Thinking that I'm no...

Rekomendasi 5 Perpustakaan Keren di Jakarta

Kalau dengar kata perpustakaan, apa sih yang langsung terlintas di benak kita? Kutu buku? Tempat membosankan? Serta macam-macam stigma lainnya yang telah mengakar di masyarakat sejak lama. Tapi, hal itu udah ga berlaku lagi kalau di zaman sekarang ini. Perpustakaan yang orang-orang anggap sebagai tempat membosankan sudah disulap menjadi tempat yang estetik, multifungsi, serta di beberapa waktu tertentu ada event yang diselenggarakan oleh pihak perpustakaan sehingga para pengunjung tidak pernah bosan untuk berkunjung. Aktivitas yang bisa kita lakukan di perpustakaan sudah sangat beragam dengan fasilitas-fasilitasnya yang mendukung. Nah, untuk kamu yang tinggal di Jakarta. Ada rekomendasi perpustakaan-perpustakaan keren yang layak banget untuk dikunjungi nih! 1. Perpustakaan Nasional Republik Indonesia gambar perpusnas Perpustakaan Nasional Republik Indonesia atau yang biasa kita kenal sebagai Perpusnas adalah salah satu perpustakaan yang dinobatkan sebagai salah satu perpustakaan tertin...

The Usual Friday

I didn't realize that for years, I've just wasted my weekdays. I did the job just as it is, was mediocre, and got stuck in a traffic jam in the morning and during rush hour. Those days, I've just spent my precious time but not enjoying what I'm doing. Cause I always wait for the weekend. Where I could finally see you. I'm over the moon when it comes to Friday. Friday was always special, an unusual day, cause after Friday there would be Saturday and Sunday. We're going to places we've never been stopped by, try what kinda food's arising, and usually ended up with deep talking and with arguments each other. On the present day, Friday, one day of the week I always look forward to, had become a catastrophe for me. Cause I know, after Friday, you aren't be there anymore. You're not going to colour my weekends like was. I was misunderstood. Friday is not always good.

You're on My Sleepless Nights

My sleepless nights have achieved a days streak. I have thought that I'm letting go, but I don't know what exactly things I release. I always think that I'm okay, and turns out that's a lie. Is there any person who knows how to get rid of things, things that always haunted us, things that used to be ours, things that have never been the same as before? How to deal with all of that? At first, I thought that our breaks were good riddance. How stupid I am! We'll never feel how bigger we love something or someone until we lost them. There is nothing between us now, but how could I miss you more than when we were together? For sure, I know there is no certain time to completely erase you from my life.

New Year, Same Shit

If we talk about the new year, the first thing that comes to our mind is actually a new version of ourselves. Resolutions, plans, and things that we want to achieve in one year ahead. Not only that, if there are things that still remain unmarked from the year before, they would be added to the target for the next year. But, what about the things that are still unsolved? What if, we still have unfinished business? And do we have to carry those things every time and everywhere we go? New year, but the same shit, and it’s totally fine. Heavy things come to us, but that doesn’t mean everything comes harder. I mean, of course, everything gets harder. But we as a human gets stronger even more. I thought it was easy. Of course, it was easy. Sometimes, we just like to make things more complicated than it was. We like to romanticise our sorrow and sadness. Cause that is how we celebrate. If there are no things such as happiness that can make our day brighter, then we have to turn our sorro...

The One Who Drives

I thought that I don't have to fill the tank again But clearly, I have to go back to the driver's seat And still, the passenger's seats are vacant Navigate to the new routes I don't know what comes in front of me What comes next Maybe I'll find someone new to fill the seat Even just for a short excursion I have nothing You... You are not mine even for a second Sometimes, I got tired cause I'm the one to drive But I have to Cause I had lost you before I can have you The road is still protracted And this vehicle has to keep forward

Music Therapy 'Let Somebody Go'

Kemarin aku terbius dan hanya terfokus pada Coloratura dalam album Music of The Spheres. Lalu rilislah MV Let Somebody Go dengan ala-ala dimensi cerminnya Doctor Strange, juga memperlihatkan sorrowness yang truly touch and kinda break my heart. This song is about loss and how we accept and perceive it. Saat musisi masa kini berlomba dengan explicit languange or F* word dalam lagu mereka, Coldplay menyajikan musik tanpa itu dan emosinya tetap terasa begitu kuat. How soothing the music is, Selena's voice like an angel, beautiful and deepest pain lyrics, I really need more like this! I'm not on the mood to cry, however this song just let me tears my eyes. My favorite lines - when they call the mathematicians and they ask them to explain, they say love is only EQUAL to the pain

Student of Life

Dari kesalahan-kesalahan yang pernah aku buat, tetap ada orang-orang yang berdiri tegap di sampingku. Mereka tidak berbuat apa-apa, hanya berdiri, menatapku, dan sesekali membantuku jika aku ingin terjatuh. Mereka yang kembali membuat badanku tegap menghadapi terjangan badai. Kalau aku akan terjatuh, pasti akan ada yang menolong. Tidak pernah ada yang membiarkan aku benar-benar jatuh. Mereka selalu mengulurkan tangan mereka ketika diriku sudah lemah menopang badanku sendiri. Sekarang aku berpikir, bahwa pergi, bersembunyi, itu bukanlah penyelesaian. Dengan sendiri, aku memang menenangkan diriku, tapi dalam ketenangan, belum tentu masalahku akan mengurai begitu saja. Masalah-masalah itu justru semakin membeku sehingga membuatnya semakin sulit untuk dipecahkan. Berlari, juga apa yang aku kejar saat berlari dari masalahku sendiri? Bukankah justru aku membuang waktuku yang mahal hanya untuk menghindar dengan berlari. Ditambah aku akan kelelahan. Memang kemana aku berlari? Dimana...

One Minute You're Happy, The Other You're Sad

I always got a fever when my feeling quickly changed. It's normal by the way. The response from my body when there's something that may be disturbed the cells in my brain. A little dream in the dawn had made a bunch of feelings in my heart. I dreamt of an old friend in my childhood who brings so many memories. I never thought about her before, but when the dream comes, suddenly I tried so hard to get in contact with her which is now I have already contacted her. It was a long long time ago since we connected the last time. This thing made me delighted. The past played in my head and made me relieved cause I remember it all too well. One minute you're happy and the other you're sad. The line that I've got from If Life Is So Short by The Moffats . Feelings always change. Funny isn't it? When you are so angry with the traffic, when you are late to catch up the bus or train, when someone is not on purpose spoiled your coffee, or when you run out of food for dinner...

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